There are days when I sit and ask God, "Is today the day I get what I asked for?". Typically the answer is no. Actually most of the time the answer is no. And I have to be honest when I say it still frustrates me a bit. To know even when I'm being diligent and focused, I still don't get what I want and have asked for. Patience is a fucking virtue I've said before and I'll say it again but damnit if I didn't get mad at the fact that it feels like most prayers of mine just go unanswered. But that's religion. That's God. On time when needed never when wanted. Fuck me.